I wish there wasn’t such a stigma that goes along with being an alcoholic. It’s interesting how being a party girl was much more comfortable for people than knowing I’m a recovering alcoholic. If you want to throw a little awkwardness into any conversation, mention recovering alcoholic.
I don’t feel flawed. As crazy as this sounds, I’m actually grateful to be an alcoholic. I have a built in community that is focused on healing, self care, and spirituality. I can go anywhere in the world and find a meeting of my peers. I can be in an airport and page Bill W. and someone from the program will come support me.
And what is the cost of being an alcoholic? It means I can never take a sip of alcohol again. So what. It’s poison for me, so it’s not such a big cost?? It also means I don’t have the option of numbing out what I’m feeling, I get to move through whatever emotion or situation rather than pushing it down and filling it with liquid novacaine. There is a lot of freedom in fully living.